8.26.2007

Homesick

Welcome to my first case of homesickness.

I've always been pretty independent, so missing home this much is quite a surprise to me.

I enjoy Liberty. I really do. I love the mountains, and having to use my Bible for homework, and praying before starting every class, and meeting friendly people, and Campus church, etc. But for some reason I find myself being reminded of high school.

Yay for high school!

Sike.

That's what makes me miss home: the lack of anything even similar to high school. No drama. No girls that are consumed with guys and checking them out and finding "the one." Another thing that's weird...having everything you say repeated to someone else. I hate that. Actually, maybe I don't. It holds me accountable.

The bigger issue, the one that really made me long for a familiar face and voice, especially a long hug and encouraging words, is pretty complicated and can't be openly discussed on this "public blog". So, I'll try to explain it as best I can. I was spending alot of very enjoyable time with a friend, but the decision was made tonight that the friendship should probably come to an end, because it's effecting another friendship in a negative way. Blah. So now I'm afraid I won't enjoy it here as much as I have been. Lame-o. This silly drama is just lame. o.

Well anyway, I was going to complain some more, but I don't want to.

Oh...I do have some happy stuff to share. Tonight I had a little date with God. What started out as a very lonely event lead me to a quiet spot where I could watch fireworks and just meditate on the Lord and His Word. It was so warm and comforting and peaceful.

I love Him so much.

8.13.2007

Something I wrote a while ago...

Oh God, be near to this broken heart
Though it seems there's not much,
I pour it out to You
For You are my refuge

I can't take back what I handed over
to wreckless hands
and an unsovereign heart

But your gentle whisper steals me away:
"No one will take her from My hands."

So be at rest once more, O my soul
For the Lord has been good to you.

Approach the throne of grace
With confident faith
The grace that makes all things new.

I will be strong, I will take heart
Lord I will wait for You.