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So I painted on a canvas for the first time last night. It was really relaxing and mind-emptying. (Because I would try really hard to think of something to paint, but nothing would come!) I'll have to start doing it when I have alot on my mind and want a break.

I'm beginning to feel complacement. I would contribute it to not having enough time to get plugged in to anything, but that's not it. My personal, individual alone time with the Lord is just slackin. I love Liberty, and learning about the Lord in class, but I sometimes fear that it will become routine. That my relationship with God will become less intimate and more "knowledge driven". I really don't want to be one of those people.

Today I was thinking about how easy it is for a person to appear one way, and be COMPLETELY different when you get to know them. For example, someone can have the appearance of being full of integrity, honesty, faithfulness, compassion, and passionate about the will of God. But then you get to know them, and you find that NONE of these things (or any other qualities that you may like to add) are accurate descriptions of the person.

This was really discouraging to me...because it's usually not until after you've developed a certain level of respect, admiration and even love for this person that the facade begins to fade. So then I'm faced with this dilemma: how do you trust that the person you're talking to is really who they appear to be? Is it possible to find someone who really is what you see?

Then I thought about this: I can't see the Lord, but I never question His character. He doesn't change. He is always who He says He is. Sometimes I long to see Him, to literally feel Him, to be held and comforted by Him, but I find greater comfort in knowing that He is Truth. He will not disappoint. He will not fail. My eyes may not catch glimpse of Him, but my heart sees Him.

And He is absolutely breathtaking.